Trying harder to love myself

It’s an everyday struggle as anyone who suffers from body dysmorphia knows. I feel pretty in this picture even if I don’t look perfect.

What makes you feel pretty? I bought some sexy workout clothes to keep myself motivated. So far it’s just motivated me to take more full length selfies. Still a win if you ask me.


30lbs ⬇️2016-2019

I have struggled with bulimia for 20 years. I feel a tinge of jealousy when people tell me they “grew out of it” in their teens but I’m also happy for them. I’m better now than I ever was before and I take methylated b vitamins to contend with the anxiety I believe causes it.

I was never a binge eater, just a purger. For anyone struggling with it now, me and my five missing teeth are here to tell you it’s not worth it. I have good days and bad days, even good years and bad years–i also believe in myself.

The weight loss you see above is from redirecting my depression into healthy choices, not from purging (which makes me bloated and hungry)

Ideally I don’t care about losing more pounds. Just getting some muscle and maybe a more defined waist. Away we go!